Dear Luke,

The days of you being an only child are drawing to a close. And what terrifies me more than anything about bringing another child into our family isn't whether or not it is possible to love another being as much as you - I know my heart will continue to grow, but what bringing another person into our family does to the little world within which you currently exist.

I worry that by bringing your baby sister into this world, we will somehow lose a bit of you along the way. I know that is a ridiculous thought, but it scares me to think that you might feel some bit of pain/hurt in not being the only child anymore.

For the last 2 1/2 years, our world has existed completely around you. And that will continue on, I promise! The only difference is that that world will be expanding to make room for your sister. Our hearts and minds will expand so that both of you fit just as comfortably in our arms and world as you have always felt.

You have amazed me from the second I held you in my arms on December 11th, 2008, and I know you will not seize to amaze me once your sister arrives. So I wonder why I worry so much about disrupting your little life. You have adapted to everything we have thrown at you, and I know that this will be the same. You have shown me no reason, thus far, as to why I should even worry. You give kisses to your baby sister in my belly, you refer to her by name, you tell us about all of the things you will teach to her, you know exactly where she is going to sit at the kitchen table when she is bigger, you seem excited to be a big brother. I know you have no idea as to what is really coming, but I have very high hopes that everything you feel and talk about now will continue once we bring your sister home.

I am so excited for you to have a sibling because in my life and in your Daddy's life, most of our very best memories from childhood are with our siblings. They certainly make life that much more fun and the love that you have for your sister will be unconditional. You will be a wonderful big brother and will watch over your little sister for the rest of your life [no matter how much she frustrates you :) ].

You made me a Mommy and because of you I learned more about myself than I ever could have imagined. You are the reason for everything that we do, even bringing another child into our family. You have showed me how wonderful the life of a Mommy can be!

Your Daddy and I love you so much and that will never change. We will work hard every.single.day to make sure that you always know how much you are loved because you deserve to know.

We are looking forward to what the future holds with you and your baby sister, and I have no doubts that you will relish in the role of big brother!

I love you to the moon and back a gazillion times,

Mommy

Mom, what?

Dearest Luke,

While I love hearing you call out for me, especially in the morning, the transition from Mama to Mommy to MOM, has been far too quick. I mean, you are not even 2-years old yet. You are not exclusively calling me Mom yet, but I have been hearing it more and more. Maybe it is just a phase and you will go back to calling me Mama again. I can only hope.

That's all for now.

Love,

MAMA