Finding Nemo is one of Luke's favorite movies and one of our favorite lines in the movie is said by Dory - "Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming." This is kind of my motto these days!
I guess you could say I am feeling a little overwhelmed. I'm overwhelmed at work, overwhelmed at home - just overwhelmed. I keep telling myself to just breath, don't stress, take everything one step at a time, just keep swimming.
Work - so much going on. I don't know when it happened or how it happened, but it all seems to be happening at once. While I generally thrive on being as busy as I am, I am loving it and hating it right now. On one hand, it is great to be so busy to keep this pregnancy moving, but on the other hand, I know I have to get A LOT of stuff done at work before I go on maternity leave and that is causing some anxiety. I am trying to just prioritize, make lists, and get as much done in a day as I can while still leaving no later than 4:30 otherwise my mommy guilt kicks in times 1,000 and that just makes me stress even more. I have been and will probably continue to go in on Fridays (which is usually my day off or I work from home) until my maternity leave which gives me one less day to get stuff done around the house, hang out with Luke and just rest up for the weekend (which seems to be filled with something every week).
Home - my poor home. It needs a good cleaning. I made a plan to just focus on one room a night. So Monday night I gave our master bathroom a really good cleaning and then I couldn't move. I literally was aching everywhere! Apparently, I super cleaned one room too many and my 31 weeks pregnant body was telling me so. My back was bothering me again (like it was early on in my pregnancy), I was feeling a lot of pressure, which made me nervous, and I just was exhausted. So while our master bath is finally clean, I have yet to get to another room. Some people say to not worry about cleaning right now, but if you know me, you know that if my house isn't clean, I stress about it until it is. So while I have every intention every night of cleaning something, my body starts to ache just thinking about sweeping so I don't. I am hoping that nesting instinct kicks in really soon!
Baby - while we have the big stuff that we need for the baby, we need to find it in the basement and get it set-up. That stuff doesn't stress me out. I know we can knock that out in an afternoon on some free weekend day (which I think we have 3 of those between now and when the baby is due). It is the other stuff - the newborn necessities that I have somehow forgotten. I need to make a list and just get to the store on one of those free afternoons too.
Overall, I am just overwhelmed. I know everything will get done, it always does. So I just keep telling myself to "just keep swimming" and to breathe. This baby does not need stress and neither do I.
In 2 short months, I will re-read this post with my baby girl in my arms and my toddler at my feet and wonder what could have caused such stress knowing that for 3 months I get to spend all of my time with these little miracles. If only hindsight wasn't 20/20.
(Phew, I feel better! This post helped me avoid a major cry that I have felt coming on for the last few days.)
Oh and we did celebrate Easter this year so hopefully I can blog about it soon!
