I am officially a working mom. I went back to work this past Wednesday. It was definitely one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I cried the night before when I was rocking Lucas to sleep. We were looking at each other, and he smiled at me. I lost it - how was I going to make it without those smiles all day??? I cried that morning while I was getting ready, and then as I went out the door. I was "ok" while I was at work. I had my mommy brag photobook so that I could show everyone pictures of him. That was fine until I looked at the pictures myself at lunch and started to cry. Luckily I was very busy at work trying to catch up so that kept my mind pretty occupied! The other good thing was that Grandma Z. was here to watch Lucas Wednesday-Friday. Grammy Laurie is coming this week. It is nice to know that he is with family. March 9th Lucas will start daycare. While I am very confident in the daycare we have chosen, it will be a whole different story....I will probably really lose it then!
My hours are 7:30-4. These hours at least allow me to enjoy 4-5 hours at night with him and of course I am living for the weekends now. I am extremely exhausted though (not to mention I have been sick for the past week or so - I just can't shake this cold/flu). Hopefully Lucas will start sleeping better at night. Working doesn't allow for any afternoon naps...the second I see him when I come in the door though after work, I get this second wind. This is definitely a tough transition, but I know that over time, I will be just fine!
Sounds like you are hanging in there. I give props to working moms...it must be so hard. But just think, the time you have with him now will be that much more cherished! Hopefully you are starting to feel better, Lucas will sleep better for you, and the weekends will come quickly!
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