I Am...

Sad. Really sad. I officially become a working mom again next Wednesday. This time is proving to be more difficult than last time. I thought it was supposed to be easier the second time around??? I can't really explain why it is harder, but I know there have been a lot of tears lately. The tears seem to come at random times of the day, but a lot come when Wally and I are laying in bed talking. I am the face Paige has seen and the voice she has heard all day and every.single.day of her life thus far. I know that will continue, but it still makes me upset. The transition starts with Grandma Z. coming next week, then Grammy the following week, then the dreaded daycare drop off. I may be sad, but I know that I have wonderful support and an understanding workplace to help me get over this hump and into our new normal. I am sure this is not the last post you will read about this transition.

Thankful. Very thankful for having a job that allowed me to take nearly 3 1/2 months off to spend with my family. I know not everyone is lucky enough to have this much time, and I made sure not to take this time for granted.

Hopeful. Hopeful that it will get a little easier every time I have to leave my baby girl. It does help seeing how happy Luke is at Punky's and knowing that he will be there with Paige, but it still isn't easy.

Blessed. Extremely blessed to have 2 beautiful, healthy children, a wonderful husband, and amazing family and friends. I do not for a second forget that I am truly blessed in life.